I’ve never spent so much time not thinking. I breathe evenly to keep my lungs happy.
I thought I saw you before, but this time was different. It almost hurt. Hurt my eyes. Something about the brightness of the colors…like you were overexposed. I looked away, I wanted to feel that flinch again, I looked back. A shape I’ve seen before but could not name.
“But I, I told my friend to give up on her dreams She hated me but I
I knew the dreams were for the best of us, not for the rest of us And I, I didn’t wanna share with anyone
I need a way to sing the greatest dance and make them laugh
I could win the wars or lose the battles, too Whichever’s true
I am living other people’s lives
I can’t stop putting on other peoples’ clothes
I love until I leave …
I will run until I know what to believe
I am a marathon runner” -Yellow Ostrich
I remember when it was just a game to us, and I realized we’ve begun to play again. Roll the die. Pass go. You didn’t stop. I stretch my legs for the distance.
I thought of all the times I’ve waited for you. Is this time any different? My dad’s words repeat in my head, and I swallow my pride instead of my joy. I bounce on the balls of my feet.
What’s another day after you’ve celebrated the end of days?
Everything matters. I sprint. My palms are open to the air.